My Fears

To : My Fears

From : Me


I want you to know it's over between us.

We have had a crazy ride past year but I have found someone new.

I am getting back together with Faith..we have big plans for today and the other days.

I can not let you hold me back any longer.


Regards,

Girl,,Girl,,Girl

things a girl wants from her guy but won't ask for :

1. Good morning / goodnight texts.
2. Pictures taken together.
3. Surprises, especially little ones.
4. Visiting and bringing her favorite food.
5. A hoodie with his scent all over it.
6. Really long hugs.
7. Listening her story.
8. Sincere compliments.
9. Sing her favorite song, even if it's out of tune.
10.Asking to have a dinner.
11. Real, deep conversations.
12. Nonsense but funny conversations too.
13. His "gentlemanliness".
14. Comfort and patience when she's in tears.
15. Telling her how much you love her.

5 terms

There are 5 terms obtained from the person praying :

1. Allah S.W.T hears that person right away, so he got what was asked.
 
2. Allah S.W.T changes people's demands and gave him salvation from disaster.
 
3. Allah S.W.T answered the demand with a much better change.
 
4. Allah S.W.T suspends people's demands until an appropriate time.
 
5. Allah S.W.T suspends people's demands until his death. His prayer become mistress in the afterlife.



So...just do the best and Allah will do the rest :)


 

Tu Me Manques

In French, you do not really say "I miss you."
You say "Tu Me Manques," which is closer to "you are missing from me."

I love that. "You are missing from me."
You are apart of me, you are essential to my being.
You are like a limb, or an organ, or blood.
I cannot function without you. :))

Watch This!!!

You are not here just to fill the space and to be a background character in someone else's movie.

Consider this : (nothing would be the same if you did not exist). Every place you have ever been and everyone you have ever spoken to would be different without you.

We are all connected, and we are all affected by the decisions and even the existence of those around us.

Trouble in the heaven

On board,,

At that time, I peacefully sailed out to the South China Sea. I could calmly navigate to Gladstone, Australia since it seemed that heavy rains chilled the heat of the board and sky with dark clouds made a high wind. This tranquilty was like a calm before the storm because I would navigate the Pacific Ocean with heavy storm during Monsoon season. However, I wanted to enjoy this moment. My life with sailing has been almost 4 years and I thought that I had known what I should do at that time.

On that day, the Street of Taiwan was very calm, but heavy squalls with frequent thunder and lightning existed during the rainy season. While chatting with a duty quarter master when a third officer handed over navigation watch, my ship was boastingly speeding along an estimated course toward Darwin with speed about 16 knots sneering at slow ships. Upon watching a huge vessel ahead, I was trying to speed up and overtake it.

Because of storm cloud and heavy squall, my radar showed some fuzzy and vague images, but I thought it did not matter to catch up. I placed the stem heading on the left because it seemed port side was wide and clear to steer. My ship was approaching to the huge vessel, but it seemed okay to overtake it. But this was just what I thought, the thing were abruptly changed.

Hard Port!!! This was time when I saw the red light of the heading vessel. Because my ship was over 15 knots, it turned to port side with strong shake and made it very close to the vessel.

I could escape from the peril while circling 90 degree from the true course, and I could not calm down to the close call. While my ship returned the true course, steered off to starboard to go to the alter course and I was cooling off, a lightning made me see a bulk carrier which was getting close to our heading. Until then, my Radar and naked eyes could not catch it. Deciding to starboard to avoid a collision, I continued go to the starboard side, but I observed that the bulk carrier altered course to our heading, which was the port. Seemingly, the bulk carrier noticed me for the first time at that moment. Regardless of this situation heavy squall was pouring us down, and it seemed that thunder and lightning warned us of what would happen in the near future.

At this moment, I made the worst mistake to quickly issue the hard port…and then…

Unfortunately, the bulk carrier turned to starboard while I stopped starboarding and started to hard port. I could not turn to the other side, and it was too short to turn to the hard port hoping that the bulk carrier swiftly turned to the port.

Although the bulk  carrier turned to port approaching to my heading, it was still to late to put the clock back. I realized that I could not help colliding with the carrier, and I stopped the engine while turning to starboard where the carrier passed my heading less than 0.4NM. In the end the bulk carrier passed and I could continued the voyage normally.

Recalling the near miss, it does not make any sense to me. It seems that most of accidents arise from carelessness. It is a shame that the accident could happen because did not pay any attention to the environment around us.

Additionally, there have been many manuals and materials that can be used for pedagogical purpose in safe navigation, because safety navigation is the most important things during at sea. This is to known to everybody, but it is not easy to act in accordance with this simple lesson.

That is all of my short story and I called it ‘trouble in the heaven’

Bon voyage

Tanpa Tinta

Ms. Sleeping Beauty

Kenapa namamu hadir di saat semua pintu hati kan ku tutup?
Kenapa suara mu terdengar di saat telinga ku rapatkan?
Kenapa nama mu tertera di saat mata ini telah menutup?

Kenapa kau baru nyata di saat telah ku abdikan hati ini untuk yang fana, tidak berujung?
Kenapa kau baru nampak saat telah ku relakan diri ini untuk menghilang?

Kaulah anugerah. Hanya itu jawabku.

Saat pintu hati telah tertutup rapat, saat telinga ini tak ingin lagi mendengar, saat mata ini tertutup, engkau sudah ada didalamnya, tak ada lagi yang lain.

Sungguh, garis senyum dan lentik jemari serta hangat perhatianmu takkan pernah terlepas dari ingatan si pelupa ini. Takkan..
Sungguh, hangat dekapan dan sapaan serta renyah suaramu belum hengkang dari peredaran hati si penyendiri ini. Belum..

Apa aku berhak untuk memilikinya? Aku semakin bingung dalam kebimbangan yang tak tentu. Aku takut kan berada pada tempat yang seharusnya tak berhak kumiliki. Aku takut hancur dengan harapanku yang semu. Akankah aku kini sebuah bunga yang tumbuh layu di atas padang gersang, berharap hujan kan hadir menyirami tanah ini, Menjadikannya subur dan menghadirkan warna warni bunga yang harum?
Berhak kah aku atas perasaanku sendiri? Benarkah asa dan harap ini tak akan membuat orang lain kecewa karena aku telah membawanya dalam hari-hari ku yang semu? Seandainya saja aku memiliki sedikit keberanian untuk mencipta rindu..

Hari itu, aku ingat betul aku merasa telah begitu lama mengenalmu, bukan hanya akrab, tetapi dekat. Pada masa jauh sebelum aku lahir, bahkan lama setelah aku mati. Dan jarak antara kelahiran dan kematianku, aku merasa pernah bersatu denganmu. Entah dimana..

Sorot tajam tatap mata memberi kehangatan, menusuk jiwa yang sepi.

Tiba-tiba saja kehadiranmu menjadi begitu penting.
Ya, kamu, dengan senyumanmu membiusku perlahan, merasakan kembali gelora di dada yang lama mati suri.
Aku hanya bisa membatin, hanya air mata yang mengalir membasahi pipi ini.

Aku yakin, percaya akan suatu waktu.

Tidak banyak, tetapi ada orang yang berpikir bahwasanya segala sesuatu harus melalui waktu, dan membiarkan waktu yang menjawab suatu persoalan.
Tapi tidak denganku.
Menurutku, waktu ibarat setiap hela nafas yang kita hela lalu hembus, sesuatu yang sangat berharga dalam hidup ini, seperti dalam film seri Jack Bauer , setiap detik begitu berharga demi suksesnya sebuah misi.

Kehadiranmu adalah anugerah. Terindah dari apa yang pernah ada dan yang akan ada. aku ingin menjalani proses kehidupan ini bersamamu.
Semua melalui proses dan waktu, dan kamu tahu itu. Semua ada waktunya.

Kita bahagia bukan karena sudah waktunya. Kita bangkit dan maju dari rasa bersalah akan masa lalu bukan karena sudah waktunya. Aku mencintaimu bukan karena sudah waktunya. Aku hanya ingin merasakan kebahagiaan tersebut bersama kamu. Dan aku tidak akan membuang atau menunggu waktu lama untuk membuat kamu bahagia.

Indah pada waktunya bukan berarti kita menunggu lalu kemudian sesuatu akan menjadi indah pada waktunya, tetapi kitalah yang memanfaatkan waktu yang ada tersebut menjadi indah, tentu saja disertai dengan usaha dan doa.

Action equals reaction, einstein said that, did he?
I'm not persuade you to change the way your thinking, aku hanya ingin kamu menjadi diri kamu sendiri. Itu saja.

Do what you wanna do, share it with your friends, cry it with them, talk about your worried to them and argue it. Read your Novel and spend time with it to contemplating and then pray. Write some notes or tweet something, tell the whole world what's in your mind. Do shopping, and make friends with your hobbies. Listen to your music to ease your sorrow and play with your favorite violin. Gather with your family, so you could hear a life story from them. Ooo, i know you'd like it, go, do it with everyone you wanted to do. Go travel, so you can release your stress. Do your routine job, and spend your time with it. Go glam and fitting your dress. Sleep like a polar bear, then hibernate.

All i want you to do is just be yourself, and when it comes to you to need someone to rely on, you can lean on me, cause i will always be right there at your side, not physically, but when its time, i will give it to you forever.

Mungkin kita pernah gagal perihal cinta, dan menorehkan bekas luka yang seumur hidup tidak akan terlupakan. Namun, biarkan aku mencoba menjahit kembali luka-luka itu dan memberi sesuatu yang baru. Karena aku ingin kamu, itu saja.

Aku disini, menunggu waktunya datang kelak dan hanya mengunci hati untuk namamu sebab sungguh, senyuman itu yang menyenangkan aku.